“Richard lied to you; he always wanted everything I had. I was just blinded by the love I have for him. We’ve been friends since childhood, back at Dublin. His father was a partner in my father’s company before he died. Richard sold all of his father’s shares and Later lost everything through gambling. Then he came back here to his mother’s land to start over. I supported him and sent him as much as I could to help. I just couldn’t believe he could betray me like that… he knew I truly love you.”

He looked down, “Well I was told such is life. You can’t imagine how hard it was to live without you; I was depressed, but I never gave up hope of seeing you again.” A bright smile appeared on his face.

He looked his real self again. I couldn’t help but feel happy. I didn’t care if it was all a lie, if Richard only tried to mess with my head, all I cared about was that I and Nicholas might have a chance to be together again. Gosh! I’m stupid in love!

Nicholas kept pursuing me and I kept playing hard to get. Experience sure is the best teacher. But after a while I decided to give him a chance, so I invited him for dinner. "I have something to tell you Nick."

I rolled my eyes. Is it a good idea to tell him about the pregnancy I had? No I shouldn’t, he doesn't need to know. “It wouldn’t bring back the baby. Nick junior is gone." I thought out loud.

"Nick junior?" Nicholas was confused.

"You weren’t supposed to hear that."

"Oh," He pointed his finger laughing, "You watch nick junior? That kiddie’s channel?"

I waved my hand, "No, No."

But Nicholas kept laughing. "That's adorable; you don’t need to deny it."

There was no point arguing with him, he believed I was talking about a kiddie’s channel.

"Anyway I've been thinking a lot lately and..." I paused.

"And?" Nicholas was curious.

I rolled my eyes again, "I'll give you another chance."

Nicholas jumped on me, and hugged me tightly. "Thank you so very much my love. I promise this time there won’t be any regret."

I hoped in my heart that I truly wouldn’t regret.

"But we can't get intimate again, we can't!" I said.
"Love is far beyond that, I promise I won't pressure you into that," He smiled. “Until marriage." He added.

I choked on my spit; Nicholas actually wished to get married to me? An unexplainable joy filled my heart. But it was mixed with uncertainty and fear.

"Well now that we are a couple again, there shouldn’t be any secrets between us." I looked into his hazel eyes and he held my hands.

"Okay my secret is that... I placed your picture on my chest every night before I slept while away." He said.

"Nick?" We both laughed, "You know that's not what I meant."

"But that's all I have."

"Well mine...." I paused "Our former intimacy resulted into a huge consequence.”

Nicholas looked at me seriously, "What do you mean?"

"I was carrying our baby, even before you left, I just didn’t know at first." I looked down.

Nicholas was quiet. I couldn’t imagine what was going on in his mind? We stayed quiet for few more seconds, then he lifted my face with his hand, I could see tears in his eyes. "So you lost him?”

"Yes I did."

"I’m so sorry for all the pains you went through; it’s my entire fault. I abandoned you when you needed me the most."

I could see the genuine repentance on his face. Even if I didn’t really want to give him a second chance, I made up my mind to give him that instant; my love, my soul, my body, my all.


Benedicta A. Lawrence is a young Nigerian writer who is a lover of art and nature. She is an aspiring sociologist; artist and life coach. Born in Lagos state; she is an undergraduate in the prestigious Osun State University.